I really hope that you're not as much of a dumb ass and a spaz as you present yourself to be right now. I hope that you actually learned something about the world and about yourself throughout college, that all of that money wasn't a complete waste. I hope you become something more than just a trophy wife. And, I hope that you find fulfillment in meaningful pursuits. And, I wish that I actually had faith that you would pursue the good, the beautiful and the true. But, at this point, I don't really know anything about you.
And, you know what? I'm not going to try anymore either. In fact, even if you did contact me now, I'm not really sure how/if I would respond. So, cheers to ruining our friendship. Drink up, hunny.
2). I will forever consider myself a student of every discipline I pursue, whether it be my Masters, being a wife, being a mother, homemaking, cooking, religion, faith, etc. I am forever learning more about the world, about other people, about God and His Creation, and about myself through my endeavors. I hope that I never become like you. I hope that I never play God while holding other peoples lives in my hands. I hope that I'm always humble.
I just wish you had retained the same attitude. I wish that, instead of ignoring BLATANT factual and relevant evidence, that you could/would continue to search until you found an explanation. I wish you could see the consequences of your carelessness and heartless "findings" on my family. I wish you were a fly on the wall.
But, even in this, I can only deal by shutting down emotionally. It hurts too much.
So, instead, I refuse to bow down to your "Almighty" position, doctors. Instead, I can only hope and pray that God does not bring even one tenth of the suffering my family has endured to you.
3). God, please help us.